Below are the 14 most recent journal entries recorded in flyby_tom's LiveJournal:

Monday, October 2nd, 2006
3:52 am	i love tam (Comment on this)
Friday, September 29th, 2006
12:55 am	i went for a walk i went for walk, after all it was a nice day out. sometimes i need a long painfull walk to help unclutter my mind. i just didn't know what to do anymore. not having a job or going to school and what not, plus along with what seems to be common amongst peolpe who live in the valley the wanting to get the hell out of it... wheather using drugs or whatnot to escape for a few hours or actually able to leave to go someplace else. the valley breeds a certain type of person and it, as in all plcaes has its pro and cons. but if it wasnt for the negative outside influence this town could really be something for everone to enjoy. take the gang mentality and drugs out this town and all the other shit for brains higher up running this town and imperial could even be fun. put the right people in charge to realy repesent us and someone with backbone and brains who isnt out ther for money and a cushy job. this town needs desperatly places for the teenage and young adult spectrum of the town. skating rings where parents won't sue for being neglectful or even bad parents. parents take responsiblity for your actions and how youve brought up your children. take any few moments out of your busy day to teach them how to coexcist and get along with others, teach them how to do something fun and helpful. parents educate yourselfs first if need be. bowling alleys and arcades and gokarts and yes maybe shooting ranges and archery leesons. survival seminars and outdoor activties and such. music...! because this town is producing to many drugies and gangmembers and loosers man and its long over do that something really gets done about it all. im calling out war on society and those in charge laying back wondering what to do, if they even care. those able to escape, i say good luck out there, i hope you'll come back and help someday, before the very soul of this town rotts. im but one and its hard for me to do more than just get the word out. i need your help. for those of you already in the battle,some teachers,some writters, comedians, artist, i thank you and hope rhat you'll continue to keep up the fight and some day see our town be saved... to many have died already and im adfraid only more will perish before it is all over. in memory of all that we have lost. it shall not have been in vain. Current Music: music (Comment on this)
Monday, September 4th, 2006
3:21 pm	hmmm. and so this is life.ha things seem alright . but deeper looks may reviel something more . ... .. . i love you araceli. Current Mood: amused (Comment on this)
Monday, June 12th, 2006
3:33 pm	last night well yesterday was great and wondedrful i just want her to be happy. fullmoon luve allgoodthingshappenwhentheydo? haha Current Mood: weird Current Music: the juice pigs (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 31st, 2006
6:26 pm	mutual feelings i feel infinite oh good apollo, yesterday was the greatest night of my loife. Im not even joking, every moment we were all out was perfect. Sure, chelsea and mario were being a pain in the arse, (ha) but still, it was great to be out with them two and Tom and the night and the stars and the mud and fields and canals and virginia slims and the other ones they bought, and the lighters and tom being a pyro and the smiths in the background, and oh, it was like being forever. Ah, i have never been so sure of anything in my life. there's just too much to squeeze into this tiny text box and i do not plan to dish out details of the going-ons, but it was lovely and tom is absolutely beautful in every way imaginable and i feel so cheesy ad sappy right now, but its okay cos i mean it all. it was amazing that we were just there and i felt kinda bad cos he wanted to spend time with mario too, so i tried not o be suffocating, and yeah. oh! i chipped a tooth! haha~ we just talked and talked and kissed and kissed and laughed and gasped and howled to no moon while mars and mario were in the back, sitting a lawn-chair, and it was amazing that i felt so extence, since i usually feel so small and even looking at all the stars and the black void made me feel even more in place. yesterday i was in the right place at the right time with the right people and everything was right. i miss him now...im cold and hungry and poor and buried beneath homework...s'well. (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 25th, 2006
8:58 am	ahhhhhahhhhhhh aaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh... im confused and unknowly finding out the things i didnt think i wanted to know yet. i miss tam i hope she is ok and that she gets better if she isn't ok yet even now i still feel the warmth inside when i think of her. she makes me,,,so many things... happy for one. shy..confidante at times. i would like to talk to her. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 3rd, 2006
8:36 am	olife how wonderfull you have been Monday .... we flew in a world of our own creation... bliss joy fear calm passion refressing comfort akward wil it all repeat? i never had someone like this. its astonishing (we could have died right there and we would have been happy.) the weekend i went with mario and nina to san luis but first we stoped at some ejhido and spent the night at his aunts house, well nina and mario did, i slept in my car thinking about how i missed ara and wished she was there with me. there was a fight and noise but the night ended peacefully under the glitering star filled sky. there was so many stars. the clean air and clear sky was a recharge for my soul , oh how i missed it and still do... if a ten ton truck kills the both of us to die by your side, well the pleasure the privliage is mine... kinda express what i felt monday or even the last couple of weeks.... Current Mood: awake (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, April 20th, 2006
12:18 pm	sad i hope i get to see ara today.. i like spending time with her.. things seem like a dream and life seems wonderful whil im in her arms. take care we talked about some things and about ohter things. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, April 10th, 2006
2:07 pm	update..lacking imagination..the title is. ......shocking .... i had i wonderful walk the other day. well ok yesterday. and i got to learn some things for myself and now it has to light that i must teach, realy givening ideas and tools of how to think for oneself, to be able to invision. or right enough cal ill just write. had a wonderful day spent with ara and also the days i have spent with her. get to know alittle more about her, the way she thinks and feels about things. i like her that for damn sure. th there was music and handholding and sleeping and nodding off and scratching of backs and messages and tickles and luaghter, memories only felt through Qualia.. thats right a new term from philosophy i learnt it this past week,. well it hard fro me to right becuase i know that the people who do read this already know some of the things ive done and that only becuase they where around. so if there is something you like to try , ask me i wont say no how could i. Araceli. here is your chance. this relationship you will have this chance to do and to not just wait and follow, but to lead , even if youve never been there before... there is more but to write it down would do it no justice. Current Mood: awake Current Music: the smiths... (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 29th, 2006
12:39 pm	joy.... and weird ness,,, new things. songs help clearify things and understandings grow with each new experiance. Current Mood: awake (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 21st, 2006
8:59 am	im sorry for last night. and yes mario it was a night to remeber.sorry nina .for the things ive said nothing says: ive been up since six . i couldnt sleep from all the weird and crazy yet scary dreams i had. real bad ones. like iones i have dreamt about in years exning says: im sorry nothing says: you where in it , mario , sara, erick hor in a car passing by....we were inthe car nothing says: i think at first mario was driving you are next to himm and im in th back left seat and sara is pased out or in and out of consciences nothing says: there needles in her arm exning says: eek nothing says: you and mario are doing blow and herion, and shooting up . mario is your just snorting the white powder nothing says: im trying to stop it all . but cant sseeem ito try or im unable to act nothing says: rthen it cuts to or i forget.. but the next thing we aree at AMPM and exning says: weird nothing says: we get back in the car and as im getting back into the drivers side . a piloce car pulls up not far along the the right side exning says: yikes nothing says: he your typivcal white blodne hair green eys nothing says: fit exning says: yeah nothing says: and he looks over at us and i get this sense of panic and fear washing over me nothing says: and i look over next to me and mario had a short clear straww nothing says: and he is snorting something.. and kinda smiles as i tell him to stop there a cop right there or something like that and he contiunes and i start backing the car out and i relize ii dont have my seat belt on exning says: im always paranoid like that nothing says: and i see the cop turing back looking at us againg as he walks into the stor and i make a mad dash for me seat belt and just wrapp it around. because i dont want him to have a cuase to come over and stop us nothing says: and thats when i rtelize there is beer int the car and mario is backto doing some more blow. and we drive away your in the back and i cantremember all the dream exning says: eek nothing says: this was arounfd two am in the morining and. i awoke all scared and dioriented exning says: i bet nothing says: thats just one of the first ones exning says: mer :/ (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, March 20th, 2006
8:46 am	dont know what to write. good things have happened . things are wonderfull. nights are longer and the days are far to short for the time i spend with the girl that brings me so much happiness,.. to a piont of dilerious joy. well its my birthday today. my sister woke me up at seven this moring and and gave me a cute lill card. then my mom and sister woke me up again and my mom gave me a card from her and my dad. yea im a year older and im going to celeberate this on the 25th with friends and family.and a band. my girlfriends mom tagfged along with us to the mall and then we dithced her and went off somewhere, enough said .. no one reads this anyways but still i like the sound the keyboard makes and the keys are pressed. mario and Nina seem to be Happy and see each other when i can make it happen. th ats kinda weird but hey i am a friend, i guess. hmmm look at the time . 9:04am. must get ready for classs in a little while. i miss my girl. oh yea i forgot to tell her name. araceli. such a nice name say. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 15th, 2006
11:29 am	a story I step on something that feels familiar, squishy and wet; it was the body of a dead man beneath me. The torso lay on the ground gutted from navel to sternum, aberrantly dispatched of his belongings. My stomach churned as the air wafted past my nostrils filling them with the stench of death. I closed my eyes and listened to my surroundings, becoming aware of the sounds in the forest. As my powers returned to me my eyes were able to peer through the darkness of the night and see as no other man could. I feel a pain surge through my body as I walk away from the smelly corpse. Trying to fathom what sick and depraved person, what traveler to the grave could be so cruel to afflict such gruesome horror on one of their kind? I wish I gone down that day to where mother nature made the beds of my fallen gang and friends. I hear a voice in my head becoming clearer and louder. - Why did you denounce…? - Huh who said that, where are you come out! I started to run through the forest using the towering trees as a cloak, dashing through the night wondering, trying, searching for whatever it had been that spoke to me. I was looking for a safety haven from which I could watch if anything passed. My speed and strength had almost fully returned while in the cavern I had found shelter in. -What was going on to me? My powers keep on fading for what reason I know not. - I heard a howling roar coming from a distance. I went out in search of it into the pitch of the dark looking for whatever monster had made that horrible noise. I felt the earth around me tremble with the foot steps of the creature I was about to encounter and fight in a bloody battle to the death for what the foolish cause I believed to be righteous. To gain honor, glory, and fame in the eyes of god. I was young then only a child when what I thought would be a battle to strike my name in stone and the hearts of all. This was before Jesus had denounced me, fill me with all the desire he placed in me when there’s nothing I can do about desire. -Why did you give me so much love in a loveless world? Why? -When will I be released from these self deprecating bones and skin, do you hate me? My life had become bitter over the years and life had lost is luster and all that was left was death and hatred. I look back on the fight with one the greatest foes I would fight. In fact it was just another obstacle that made me work harder. Just another lost day, another monster to go under the sod. Battle raged on for only a few brutal hours mostly spent toying with him only to snap his neck like a twig and desolate him in a blink of an eye. And so went my days spent killing in the name of false idols and prophets who’ve gone mad in solitary. Then one day came my time to fall and have my ashes sent on the winds to the four distant corners of the earth. The day that I felt a natural emotion not preordained by some so-called deity, I would be in such astonishment that I would jump in the ocean. Now when I’m gone and I think about death and I think about life and neither particularly different, yet it’s not such a sad thing. I am filled with a strange sense of warmth and happiness mixed with a sorrowful gnawing guilt of moments lost. (Comment on this)
11:26 am	hmm just fillin space tom from myspace says: hello my computer keps messing up with msn exning says: ut oh tom from myspace says: but it seems toi be working now exning says: good\ exning says: brb tom from myspace says: ko exning says: ok exning says: wahhh exning says: im so tired i dont want to go to school blah tom from myspace says: what tom from myspace says: hah well im supposed to be in class righ tnow exning says: haha really? tom from myspace says: but i cant go dont have money for parking exning says: eek tom from myspace says: and my mom forgot to leave money for me so fuck her exning says: lol tom from myspace says: i dont want to go to ivc anymore tom from myspace says: i wanna get out exning says: what are you going to do instead? tom from myspace says: i dont know but i wanna leave this summer exning says: noooooo dont leave meeee tom from myspace says: arnt you leaving to exning says: no tom from myspace says: well i though tyou and mario and me would all leave to san fran this summer exning says: hmm thats an idea exning says: little LATE now considering i didnt take THAT FUCKING TEST tom from myspace says: or at least me move in with my brother in lling beach tom from myspace says: llol tom from myspace says: what test i didnt know there was a tes tom from myspace says: t exning says: some stupid test exning says: i dont even know exning says: god i dont know anymore tom from myspace says: huh? exning says: b;hjhk tom from myspace says: ok exning says: yeah exning says: maybe we can move in for the summer or something exning says: just for kicks tom from myspace says: yeah i cant take living iwith my parents anymore exning says: i dont think neither can mario tom from myspace says: i need a car that works first that not so much a problem exning says: yeah aha tom from myspace says: how are we going to get there exning says: teach me how to drive and you can share my red car tom from myspace says: what money tom from myspace says: are we getting there with exning says: dude im white thats not a problem exning says: lol tom from myspace says: hahah a tom from myspace says: yeah exning says: do you FORGET i am white? sheesh tom from myspace says: im have white i know what tyou mean tom from myspace says: no tom from myspace says: i didnt forget exning says: hah tom from myspace says: every time i eat something i remember exning says: my mother always supports me tom from myspace says: oh nina is prob allergic to this exning says: hah tom from myspace says: cool thats real nice of her tom from myspace says: yea i think my dad is going to remorgage the house exning says: cool tom from myspace says: if i do leave so i can pay for school exning says: hmm exning says: im debating whether i should take ashower. tom from myspace says: dont yourr not seing mario today exning says: ok tom from myspace says: that was easy exning says: lol exning says: that was tom from myspace says: yeah but its true tom from myspace says: i have school later that i must attend exning says: i dont need to smell nice or anything tom from myspace says: no tom from myspace says: just out that frosting lotion tom from myspace says: put on exning says: wee exning says: brb tom from myspace says: ok exning says: haha yeah tom from myspace says: what went down exning says: que tom from myspace says: why did you go exning says: i had to go pee exning says: and put my hair up tom from myspace says: haaahahahhaa tom from myspace says: you put your hair up so you could go pee hahaa exning says: yeah you never know exning says: haha tom from myspace says: eeeewwww exning says: jk tom from myspace says: lol tom from myspace says: yea what are you going to do todday exning says: just school exning says: thats about it tom from myspace says: what time exning says: nothing planned for the day tom from myspace says: three exning says: my moms coming to pick me up at 1 exning says: 30 tom from myspace says: oh exning says: 1:30 exning says: yep yep tom from myspace says: ok tom from myspace says: what time do oyu get out of school exning says: about 3:30 tom from myspace says: lol wow exning says: why? exning says: i attend school about 2 exning says: im there for about an hour and a half hah tom from myspace says: haha wow a whole two hours exning says: not even ahha tom from myspace says: lol no im just joking exning says: time for asmoke tom from myspace says: ok exning says: brb tom from myspace says: ok exning says: wah tom from myspace says: go smoke some more exning says: hah tom from myspace says: did you realy go have another exning says: lol no tom from myspace says: oh ok exning says: hi tom from myspace says: hi exning says: whats up tom from myspace says: not musch my spaxcing exning says: nice tom from myspace says: you exning says: writing in livejournal tom from myspace says: I LIKE THE WAY ME AND MARIO DROVE BY NINAS HOUSE RIGHT NOW SCREAMING SUFRE MAMONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 AND SHE HAS NO CLUE tom from myspace says: thats what andy wrote exning says: right now? tom from myspace says: Mar 15, 2006 12:31 AM exning says: oh yeah exning says: last night exning says: it was fucking scary tom from myspace says: haha exning says: i thought someone was dying tom from myspace says: how the hell did andy and mario exning says: mario escobar tom from myspace says: i thought roko was with mario tom from myspace says: oh shiit ok exning says: hah tom from myspace says: haha tom from myspace says: yea i think its from a song that i like exning says: oh hah exning says: what is your livejournal name> exning says: ? tom from myspace says: flyby_tom exning says: ok exning says: im addingu tom from myspace says: cool exning says: considering you havent added me yet tom from myspace says: well i was going to do that soemtime exning says: hah jk tom from myspace says: well i didnt have time yesterday i took you aout to see mario tom from myspace says: jajaahah exning says: HAHAH exning says: good one tom good one tom from myspace says: ahhahaa tom from myspace says: thakns exning says: heh tom from myspace says: i havnt writting anything in it yet exning says: o (1 Comment |Comment on this)